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I knew this day will come. I knew it all along, but i just can't face it in the past. And now i'm being force to face the truth. The truth that's as cruel as always. I've lost my dearest.

This few months will just be my saddest part of my life. Met an accident, went in the operation threater. Lying on the bed, i've felt that i'm in the lowest part in my life. Everything just rushes through it making my mind into blank. Looking at the lights that are shining at me so brightly, makes you feel like i've reach the moment of my life, it's like the last moment of my life.

Now i've lost my dearest. I felt lost and i'm still feeling it. Something so important to you had just disappear in a sudden. My heart just feel like somebody had dig out a hole and took it away from me. It's the feeling of emptiness. Made me don't know what to do, how to react. Lost the motivation, determination and everything else that enable us human to move on in life. I need time to let this go.

And soon in the future, i'll be selling of my bike. I'll be losing another beloved in my life. I still can't understand the feeling, but after all these maybe i can guess how is the feeling like.

My 19th will consider to be the lowest point in my life. I've never felt so much so much before, and i've never experience these kind of pain before. It's just like everything is pulling you down to the lowest point.

How i wish that everything can go back to the past. Or i can have a time machine. So that those things that are done can be undone.

The weekend is over soon. And it's another weekend without you. I miss you dear, I just wish that i can see you now. And finally you want me to fetch you home! I'm so happy when saw the sms. After so long of asking to fetch you home, finally you accepted. I'm waiting for tomorrow to come, as i can be able to see you and fetch you home.

I love you dear.

I've been thinking over and over again these few days. And now i've realised that the problem didn't all lies with the job. The problem lies with me, all these time. And i want to know everything, everything everything i you don't like me to do. What have i always did to make you angry and sad. Now i can feel the pain that you've gone through. I wish that we can solve this together, and i mean together. Can we?

Now is your PP presentation, good luck and all the best dear. I love you.

Finally all UT one is over! what a relieve~!

It's friday again, people always says "thank god it's friday". but not for me. i know you like this job a lot, as i told you i'll still be worry but not as worry when you at least give me a sms. Always the weekend makes me miss you a lot. Friday, saturday work, then sunday you sleeping, take enough time to rest is good, but it's just makes me misses you as i won't be able to see you on weekends. But i don't mind as long as you're there with me i'll be happy.

I love you dear. =)